Thoughts (Part 1)

A friend of mine came to me and expressed all her problems. The thoughts of falling for her own bestfriend and being afraid of losing both love and friendship is scary. It is scary as you stucked in between for wanting to run away from your own bestfriend and wanting to hide your feelings.


It never happen to me before and if it does, man. Just cut off my imagination. I can't even think of falling for any of my bestfriends. I fell for my own friend before, we got along together, being together for a few years and we broke up. Now we are not even friends anymore and so what? I have my own life and he has his own life. Life goes on and I bet we are both happy with our own life now eventhough the happiness last for a while between us but I accept that as part of my destiny and I'm still the same old happy me.


Well, when u fall for someone, all you want is to be with that special someone. Doesn't matter whether the relationship is going to last or not you just go with the flow and we all know love conquers all. And it is fine to fall in love and get your heart broken everytime you did. I fall in love with guys and get my heartbroken all the time. It hurts as sometimes I wish that I'll never get my heart broken again eventhough it is impossible to be the way I want it to be. In the same time, I know I can't assume that all guys are the same. They are all different but what makes them all the same is they are all human just like me and all of us make mistake.


Back to my friend's problem. I know it will be hard for her as she just got her heartbroken by the only person that she really loved few months ago and as time heals all her wounds, she suddenly found out that she has feelings for her own bestfriend. She asked me to give her all the confidence and courage to run away while she can but I don't feel like doing so as I think that we are two different people. I'll strike for my happiness and all I want is to be with the person that I really love. No matter how long I will wait but at least I know what I want. HAPPINESS.


I feel bad that I could not help my friend regarding on this matter. All I could do is being at my very best as her good listener. I told her that it is ok to fall for her own bestfriend while to her its a big NO. This song that I'm listening to now? "Don't Change by Musiq Soulchild".. It reminds me of my own love life.


You know what happiness really mean? We'll never know unless if we have it. The feelings that I have deep inside me now? It is bigger than the whole universe and even deeper than the sea. I can't express it out loud but I feel thankful with the gift that God sent me. Listening to other people problems make me learn more about myself and understand more about life. It makes me appreciate things in life.


Life is too short to be wasted on the wrong person. Just follow your heart and find your happiness. Well, if by running away will make you happy, then just go for it. If it will be hard for you to say goodbye to the person that you really love, then never say goodbye. Be with that person while you can. Never think of losing each other while all you want is to be with each other. How could you ever think of losing each other? The silly thoughts might come and haunt you but it is also happen to everyone else. It happens to me sometimes. If you keep thinking about it you'll go crazy and without you knowing it, you might really lose that person for real. Man, that is scary. *sigh*


Well, this thing makes me learn how to appreciate the person that you love. Relationship is all about give and take. Partnership is all about giving out the best for each other and working together. We'll do anything for love right? Erk. Wish I could say more in here but I guess there will be a part 2. Got to sign off now.


There are tons of work waiting to be completed by me. Work!!! That is another story. Later!!~


*signing off*