Chapter #26: My Wish Throughout The Journey

“A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable but more useful than a life spent doing nothing”.

I received the short message from my mother, wishing me a wonderful life ahead this morning at 0811hrs. How meaningful, it kept on playing on my mind for the whole day. As I turned 26 today, I realized that many things can happen within a day. As much concrete of the reason why, I believe that many things can happen within a year. As I looked back, I reckoned my 25th birthday celebration filled with joy and so much love. It was nothing too luxurious, just a simple get together dinner with my beloved friends at one of our favorite restaurant. That was a year ago. I wonder how far I have gone within a year. To be honest, I totally have no idea. I seem to be lost and I seem could not find any clue if I have ever achieved anything in my life yet. Everything seemed to be trial and error and the rest remain to grow.

The bonding that I have with my family, keeps on getting stronger. The friendship that I treasure with my friends keeps on growing bigger. The career and success that I seek for somehow are giving me a lot of challenges. But I never really want to give up, because I believe this is part of my journey. I have completed 25 chapters in my life and now is only the beginning of another new chapter. Getting older is not a bad thing, I can see that. I realized along the way, I have done a lot of mistake. I have broken people’s heart, I have indeed regretted it. Hence, moving forward I learned from it. I understand now why my mother wants me to see that it is okay to make a mistake in life. It does make sense. Her wisdom words really have motivated me and in a way, it is one of the greatest birthday gifts ever.

“On your birthday,
I wish for you the fulfillment
of all your fondest dreams.
I hope that for every candle
on your cake
you get a wonderful surprise.
I wish for you that
whatever you want most in life,
it comes to you,
just the way you imagined it,
or better.
I hope you get as much pleasure
from our friendship as I do.
I wish we were sisters,
so I could have known you
from the beginning.
I look forward to
enjoying our friendship
for many more of your birthdays.
I'm so glad you were born,
because you brighten my life
and fill it with joy.”

I cried when I read this message. A friend of mine, whom I called my angel, wrote them to me. I realized that I keep on looking for love, when love is actually right there in front of my eyes. How can I not see that it is okay to go solo when I have such a wonderful friend around me? What more would I wish for? Nothing, I guess.

“A birthday note to my dearest friend Aelma...

Dear Aelma,
Today is the day u turn 26,
A day where everything grow a year bigger,

Aelma Safina Zaidi is a woman,
A woman that cares, love and cherish moments of happiness in her life,
she resembles an independent woman,
who survive and succeed what ever comes in front of her,
Life was never easy for her but she made it trough,

Dear Aelma,
you are stubborn in your own cute way,
you are lovely in your own unique way,
you are always blur when jokes are funny,
you give good advice with your sarcasm wisdom,
you look good with your simplest touch of fashion.
and thats the simplest description of you last year:)
the list continues as you grow more _ _ _ _ _(i starts with an O and end with a R)

Dear Aelma,
I wrote a note here today to wish you a fabulousity year ahead,
Your 26, and yes its just a number,
and also a number of years that god blessed you with good life until today,
Babe Aelma,
Happy Joyful Cheerful Blissful Birthday,
and May Allah bless you with good health and life.”

Everything that has been written was right. Life was never easy for me but I made it through. Yes, I am stubborn, and yes I am lovely. I get so blur at times especially when jokes are funny. And yes, people will come to me for my advice and the best I could give would be with my sarcasm wisdom. Sarcasm is part of me, and I believe those who are closed to me will always wish that I could save it away from them. Getting all these sweet wishes on my birthday have really opened up my eyes and heart.

I am glad that I am still alive up until today. It has been 26 years now. And the best way to celebrate today is by thanking Allah for giving me all the opportunities in life to grow and improvise myself. I understand much that there was a happiness and sadness along the way and I believe that is also part of my journey. Today, I would love to wish myself a very Happy 26th Birthday and May this mature age brings me to happiness, love and success that I seek for.

To everyone who have wished me, many thanks to all of you. To my beloved family whom I called my eternal love, I thank all of you for always being there for me, making my day with all the love that you have given me. My sisters, whom I called my true saviors, you girls made me realized that I am worth it. When I get depressed, you never fail to take my hand and hold it tight and make me strong again and help me move forward. My beloved girlfriends, what is friendship without having all of you in it? You ladies never fail to make me smile. All of you ladies never give up on me Each and every single one of you never fails to leave my sight. Through our thick and thin, all of you will always be there to share our joys and laughter, tears and cry, happiness and sadness. Just like the sunshine through the rain, that is how you always brighten up my day.

Here goes my wish for another year of living.

I wish to paint the most beautiful things in life,
I wish to fill this world with colors and love,
I wish to give all the love in the world to everyone who needs it,
I wish to love like I never been hurt,
I wish to succeed in every single chapter of my life,
I wish to treasure the most wonderful things in life,
I wish to end my journey in a good way.

Happy Birthday to me!!
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